It's been about four months since my last post, and a lot has definitely happened.
It was May when I last posted and I was looking forward to Summer '16 in Puerto Rico. I wanted to see my family, see my friends, and hook up with Rican guys. I was hoping this time would be different. Truth is, it's the same shit just a different locations. I ended up hooking up with two guys and experienced a failed attempt with a third. I don't think I want to go into details with those right now, but it'll come.
Four months. Four months, casual hook ups, failed attempts at dating, threesome proposals, a swinger party, and a couple of beers later, and I'm kinda burned out. I was going for the casual hook ups because I believed it's what was best for me. I thought it was best because the casual meant that I wasn't going to have to deal with the drama... I wasn't going to have to deal with the possibility of a heart break or the complications that relationships bring into your life. I soon realized that I was dealing with the exact same shit. And yeah, I'm doing great by myself, but I'm a sexual being so I like the male companionship in my life. Don't get me wrong, it's not a priority, but more of a cheat meal on the weekends... yummy banana splits!
So it's September and I'm dating. I haven't had sex in more than a month, and I've survived. I've been upfront with the guys that I'm seeing and I've told them that even though I don't want to jump into a relationship, I do want to give myself the opportunity of getting to know people. I do want to date. I do want to feel wanted. I'm just done with the non essential, unfulfilling, casual hook ups.
And so I'm a different person, but I don't know how long it'll last. And I'm okay with that, because that's just human nature.
Stay tuned for the "Things that I learned in Puerto Rico" post. Pre-game is a thing.
-Angie
